— Wintergirls (via misguided-gh0sts)Posted 1 week ago
so… i mean i’ve had worse food wise goes.. but throwing up? this is new.. i’ll eat only very little not even 300 cals worth and i have to purge 8+ times. the first time the last 4 vomits had blood… i gave myself a day to recover and i did it again but this time 10 times.. i made it 2 days without then only purged twice due to 1 bite of granola.. i’ve lost weight i don’t need a damn scale to see it. i’m falling apart.. and i can’t deal with life. my parents are making everything so hard for me.. i need someone to talk to i need a reason to stay.. i need hope.. i need a reason not to cut tonight.. or to purge my 30 cal baby food and diet soda.. i had more than that to eat btws. 1 1/2 crackers, 4 freeze dried strawberries less then 5 cals, lots of coffee, oatmeal 100 cals some tofurky 50 cals. 4 nuts, and a bite of 5 different granola bars but not even enough that it was a fourth of any. also a banana.